Ravings for Remedies

…for a comrade who is not hung up about their Klinefelter condition. An individual who knows that the chemicals inside our brain are influenced by hormones and not the supposed thoughts of others as an individual deficient in Testosterone might suggest. One in six hundred, that is the likelihood of crossing paths with one another ’sufferer’ (I say sufferer like this, because I do not feel debilitated by my condition and think the word ’sufferer’ can be better utilised by others with greater afflictions; we are small potatoes); I am the one who is in control of my life, not my hormones. Though saying that, when the medication runs its course, the hormones fluctuate. Thus, it is in our best interests to maintain a regular testosterone replacement routine. Without testosterone at a young age, we do not develop properly and as a result may be affected more so in adulthood. My condition was detected just after the start of puberty and with bi-weekly injections I was developing normally.

When I was growing up, the information superhighway was obviously not available and so the possibility of meeting fellow ’sufferers’ was unlikely. Early in my development, an endocrinologist informed me that the only support groups available were for those with mental problems, extreme cases of Klinefelters. I felt lost. Now it appears the reverse and this is not always a good thing. I have conversed with an individual who is so down on his life and others, so desperately seeking pity, that he repels everyone: ‘And yes the f**king world has been beating the crap out of me for most of my life. Yes the f**king world does owe me a f**king favour. The world can go f**k itself for all I care’.

We all think like this sometimes in our lives, every one of us: a broken heart, a death in the family or the unsatisfactory results of failing study, for example. But to draw all the problems with everyday life into one issue – ones genes – is ridiculous. Our minds are highly complicated at the best of times, yet we need to look after them as best we can. If we do not take the right medication, then it is our responsibility, not the worlds. I don’t blame the world for how I was created, it’s not a bad thing, it makes me unique; isn’t that what we all want to be seen as, individuals?

You can be a victim or prey to the fluctuating hormones inherent in deficient testosterone or you can take control; I know what path I’ve chosen.